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My walk with God...
Well...
I guess...
This would be like an open diary...
Where all my thoughts will be recorded...
It's a log that will see me doodling and ranting...
Basically in here...
You can see me grow in Christ (I hope) and my thoughts...
Oh and the link to my church's website...
And the link to my subzone's website...
Just click on them... =)
May 17, 2003
Finally received my confirmation on my baptism date today... So happy I want the world to know I'm getting baptised on May 24, 2003 at 5pm!!!!
Inviting my whole JC class and some of my closer friends... I really want to declare aloud that I'm getting baptised next week... Praise be to God... by tomorrow Singapore will be given the all clear of SARS by WHO... but still need to pray... Pray that it is really contained and not just a false front... Coz the economy really cannot take another blow... And must continue to pray for China, Taiwan and Hong Kong... Really want to see healing upon the land...
God has seen that everything in my life is going according to His perfect wonderful plans... Received acceptance letter on Monday May 12, 2003 from Laselle-SIA Drama faculty... So happy... Thank God... Bless His wonderful name... My prayers have been heard... And then just yesterday May 16, 2003 was told by Melissa that God have answered her prayers to find a cell leader for the girls by showing me to her... Somehow the girls and I just clicked... Thank God... Hopefully the transition later will be smooth... Well I believe God will make it rather smooth... Not to bumpy I hope... And today He confirmed my baptism... God is just too good...
Pastor Debra's birthday today... Our subzone got her a bouquet of roses and a cross to hang on her handphone... Weiying was so cute... Sent the flowers and present to Ps Debra's home coz Pastor never come to service today as she was sick...
Now I'm just waiting for the people I've invited to tell me whether they will or won't be attending my baptism... Hai~! I hate waiting but... Must have patience... Building that up through all these... I'm a person who wants to see things done immediately... If not I'll feel lost... But think now God is training my patience up not only through this but many other things too... Well God is good and His plans are perfect for us... So I'll trust in Him and Him alone will I trust...
Well, that's it for now... Gotta go sleep and recharge... Battery losing energy... Zoinking out soon... Nite peepz...
May 24, 2003
I am BAPTISED today... Praise the Lord... I thankl God that I can be baptised in His name... So happy... I was so happy that I was at a lost for word... Thank God that my friends came to witness my baptism... God is so good... Oh... My baptism was really funny... I forgot to take that big breathe before going into the waters... So when I was going down... I remembered and tried to keep my head up to take that breathe,,, But my leader didn't realise that I forgot to take that breathe and started pushing my head down into the waters... Haha... My teacher who was downstairs saw what was happening and told my friends that something seems to be wrong... But it was still a very nice experience... To be baptised in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit...
I needed another $1000 for school fees this week... God blessed me with my cell leader, Melissa's mother loaning me that money... God is just too good... Blessed is His name... Finally... I'm confirmed to be in Laselle with that payment of my school fees... God do answers prayers... And I believe He has a perfectly wonderful plan for me in Laselle and wherever I have been place by Him to be...
God is good... God is great... And He loves me... Amen... =)
June 4, 2003
Hmm... It has been some time since I last wrote in here... Haha... Almost forgot all about it... Well, guess it's because all of a sudden I didn't wanna go near the computer... But hey, I'm back... Muahahahahaha.... This Saturday's my birthday... Yeah... I'm turning 19... I thank God for the past 18 years and 362 days... He has blessed me abundantly these past days... All the days of my life are His... Amen... I thank God for the Bukit Panjang Girls He has placed under my care... They are such wonderful and sweet girls... May God bless them in their studies, as well as other aspects of their lives... Lalala... Baptism has done a lot of good for me... My mind has been at peace for the past few days since baptism... I guess this is God's plan for me to rest and recharge before the trials and tribulations that would be ahead...
Life is short compared to eternity... Live it the way you want others to remember you for... Live it the way that would lead you Home to the Lord... God bless all of you... Praise Him all the days of our life!!!!
June 6, 2003
My cell group celebrated my birthday in advance for me... Felt so bless and they were so nice... I didn't wanna go for cell cos I had band practice... But my cell leader said that I should come... Didn't think that they would be so sweet... Although I felt quite rejected today after bible study this morning... They keep trying to get me away... But I suspected they were up to something... Haha...
Had supper with NIE band mates... And since we had supper till pass midnight... They celebrated my birthday for me too...
Thank God for my life... and the blessing that He has granted since the day I was born...
June 7, 2003
It's my birthday!!! But no celebration... Cos I think all the celebration was done yesterday already... Anyway felt a bit sad today... Don't know why but I felt like an abandon little kid... Haha... Maybe no longer a little kid... But still I felt quite abandon... I think it was because today I was suppose to have cell group with my girls... But in the end... They told me they all couldn't make it... Felt so abandon... Then the subzone that I'm in shrunk in numbers today because of encounter weekend... The place felt so empty without their presence... But anyway... Lesson learnt that my family in Christ is so important to me... Cos each of their presence makes my day... And I've learnt that they are all important to me... I think it's ok for me to feel abandoned... Cause at least I've learnt something from it... Praise the Lord... Looking forward to cell group on Monday which I had to reschedule to... ;)
June 11, 2003
Went for the City Harvest Church's youth event "Emerge" today... Although I only attended the first two sessions in the day, I was truly refreshed and blessed... City Harvest Church (CHC) is really passionate for God... And I thank God that I was able to attend a seminar so that I could rub some of their passion onto me...
Some people might not know, but some five years ago, I was from CHC... At that point of time, I've just began my walk with God... What I really needed then was someone to guide me along... However, CHC was already so on fire for God that it was a sink or swim situation for me... Unfortunately I sunk under the current and almost drowned... For a new believer sinking meant backsliding... I think no one saw that I was backsliding and when I eventually left the church, it seemed as if they couldn't be bother with me anymore... My cell leader back then was brother Joseph Ang... He was a strict cell leader and now as a cell leader I understand why... But back then I couldn't understand why... I just found him to be very fierce during meetings... My friend who brought me to CHC just left me there and he disappeared for a period of time... I thought his disappearance had something to do with me so eventually I left... Now I often wonder how is his walk with God... Is he still walking with God or is he not... These are the questions in my mind about my friends who had somehow brought me to walk with God...
Back to the topic of CHC... The church today seems alot different from five years back... Apart from the location, the church building and the faces of the people in the church... The church has really gone from glory to glory... What amazed me was the passion of each and every member of the church... Five years ago, the passion was there no doubt... But it was not quite there that kinda thing... Only the members with leadership roles seemed to have that burning desire with those exceptional "normal" members... Today it's a totally different story... From the youngest new "normal" member, to those "old folks" like the pastors and zone supervisors, their passion can really be seen burning... Five years ago I found the passion super scary... But today my perspectives has change... The church is just burning with passion for God... As a visitor to the church now, I am truly amazed...
Amazing how God uses people... Five years ago brother Joseph was my cell leader... Today he is a zone supervisor... Five years ago I was trying to keep afloat in my new found faith... Today I am a cell leader in FCBC... I wonder what the five years has done to my former cell mates... It could be that there was the multitude of people so I might have just missed seeing my former cell mates... Or maybe like me they had backslide along the way and never got the chance to come back to God... Or maybe they gone on to other churches in singapore like me... But whatever the maybes might be... I'll be praying that they are still walking stronger with God each day...
June 14, 2003
Just came back from Subzone retreat... Had a wonderful bbq... Although we seemed ill prepared, everyone was having fun... Somehow, the ill-preparedness brought us all into the co-operation mood... I taught Ivan how to check if the chicken meat is cooked... And I believe he was having fun... The fellowship among everyone was something that I treasure most... It's rather difficult to gather everyone for a get together... But my girls surprised me by having full attendance... Despite the fact that the bbq had only a few of us, it was still time worth spending... Elaine's cell members were the other girls who were present... From their faces, it seemed as if they had fun... I really dunno what I'm typing now... Cos I'm rather sleepy... Haha... But anyway, I enjoyed myself at the bbq... It maybe hard work to do something like that, but it's all worth the effort... I think everyone from Pastor Debra to Melissa, from Elaine to Eunice, from my girls to Weiying all had fun and enjoyed the time of fellowship however short or long it might have been...
The night before, the leaders under Melissa had a steamboat dinner at East Coast beach, I sorta supplied almost everything for the steamboat... Basically because most of the things were much more easily available to me... But although variety of the food was scarce... We had a great time of fellowship... We saw the sunset... Tried to see what we were cooking in the darkness of the night... And Weiying heard me saying "light source" as "light sauce"... We had a fun night at the beach and back in Daniel Hall... Didn't sleep until 4am although only 3 of us stayed over... Melissa, Weiying and I had a night of sharing after the other leaders went home (they had to coz of their parents)... The sharing made me go deep into thoughts... And even more sleepy than I already was... But seriously I think, I need to work on nurturing my fruits of the spirit coz they need the nurturing to become better...
June 17, 2003
It's tuesday again and I've gotta go for band practice... Don't feel like going but gotta... Concert coming soon... And my ticket sales aint moving... How am I to answer to Joy? Oh no... Who can I ask... Hey those of you who wanna go... Tell me ok? Email me or something... I desperately need to sell the tickets though I only need to sell 10... But no one is buying... Argh!!! Gotta go now... Need to go practice... See ya =|